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CLICKEDY CLICK AND YOU WILL SEE, A LAND OF WONDER AND FOLDERS FOR THEE.

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artistry isn't fun by Alcoholication
artistry isn't fun
I will never understand those who claim they're artistic because they want to be
It's not that I don't believe them, but I'll never understand them
My only experience of artistry is something akin to an addiction, maybe
I draw, or attempt to, specifically in spite of NOT wanting to
If I don't my mind or whatever bugbear it is feeding on my psyche SCREAMS at me to do it
It doesn't stop
Ever

Unending pushing and shoving and pleading and screaming and demanding
And if I do try it, it's a fucking commissar over my shoulder
nothing's ever good enough
everything is beyond shitty
worthless

this shit isn't fun
this is not some means to express myself or my secret world views
this is not some means to put forward a story that's swimming around in my head
this is just to appease whatever the fuck is demanding it of me, and shutting it up long enough that I can get some fucking peace
but it won't relent
it never does

I don't get jealous of other artists because I want to make what they make
I get jealous of them because I imagine they get the satisfaction of seeing something they can enjoy and be proud of
something they don't get to be told by their own parasitic psyche-worm is of worse quality than the fat steaming deuce I dropped in the toilet that morning
And instead of inspired, I often find myself looking at better, successful artists and thinking "fuck you, how fucking dare you have what I don't have fuck you so much, godfuckingdamn you and everything you ever do you fucking fuck"

I don't WANT to be thinking that about other people do I
No
Sometimes those thoughts aim themselves at friends of mine, and I sure as shit don't want to be thinking that about them

At this point I hate art
I hate it so much and what it's doing to me
but I can't stop it
it keeps screaming at me to make more and I can't shut it up
I'm fucking losing it
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Haha what a dope by Alcoholication
Haha what a dope
Whothefucks this dippy lookin' fucker
What you gawpin' at
Look at your face look how dumb you loo-

Oh
It's me

HÖHÖ

No I still don't know how shading works
I need a haircut
And a shave

Well maybe not a shave
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HAHA WHAT by Alcoholication
HAHA WHAT
I don't know exactly what it is I've done, but this has colours now

Yuy
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Christoffer Ravis
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Finland
I am absolutely terrifyingly terrible at explaining myself and my actions.

I am not, never have been, and doubtful I ever will be, a smart man. Rather I am simply competent.
At what? Not being dead, mostly.

If there is anything about me you wish to know, you need only ask. Rather than volunteer a selection of goody fact-nuggets, I leave it to you to decide what (if anythin) you wish to know of me. I will answer.

And I won't bite.

Unless you like it that way.
Then I'll bite you a lot.

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:iconmilky-operation:
Milky-Operation Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy BirthDay !!!
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:iconalcoholication:
Alcoholication Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Cheers bigears
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:iconmilky-operation:
Milky-Operation Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Creepy stare 
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:iconthemysteriousneon:
TheMysteriousNeon Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
dat icon doe XD
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:iconalcoholication:
Alcoholication Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Yea boi
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:iconthemysteriousneon:
TheMysteriousNeon Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
yeeeeeeeaaaa
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:iconalcoholication:
Alcoholication Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
bawk bawk
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:iconmrspanyard:
MrSpanyard Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2014
Just one llama away from Super-Llama :D
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:iconalcoholication:
Alcoholication Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
That's a thing?
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:iconmrspanyard:
MrSpanyard Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2014
Yeah, you just need another llama to have a better sprite. :)
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